Like...wait, what the fuck? How the hell did this happen?
The crippling anger I've been carrying around for the last 10 or so months finally seems to have been all used up. On Thursday night it exploded into a million tiny shards that overwhelmed me again. I sent some fucking stupid text messages and stormed through the city. I got to my destination. I realised I wasn't even angry. I realised I was being a dick. I realised I already knew. I realised I didn't even give a shit. I was angry at myself for being a tool.
Thursday night was an explosion of emotion that seemed like the others. But it turns out that explosion finally blew a hole through the brick wall inside me. The anger finally drained out.
Unfortunately, or fortunately perhaps, nature abhores a vaccum and logic rushed into to fill that new void.
I have been a bit of a fucking idiot recently. Sorry about that, everyone. I've spent so much time being upset over everyone's mistakes that I kinda forgot to look at myself. So I finally did and finally did the right thing.
I finally did the right thing and my angel flew away.
All you can ever do is wait for your own wings to grow back and hope you can catch up huh?
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