FUCK you.

I'm in such a strange place at the moment.

I'm in the same strange place where I was a few year agos. I am not alone, but I am lonely.

I wish I knew an honest solution to my situation. The only resloutions I can come up with are either illogical, ridiculous or improbable.

I've felt increasingly paranoid over the last few days. It seems we're all keeping secrets from each other, be it our friends, family or loved ones. I think that bit that surprises me the most is the friends thing. We've all been fucked over before, and everyone seems to be running some sort of dodgies behind someone elses back anyway.

It's very surreal.

Also, I have run out of money. I have $4 until 11:59pm Wednesday.
My inventory thus far:

- Maybe half a cigarette worth of tobacco
- An apple
- Half a loaf of bread
- Several cigarette lighers
- Condoms
- Water
- Many empty beer bottles
- 3 Tui
- 1 Export Gold

Not even McGuyver could create anything more than a frown and a condom-beer-balloon with those ingredients. The next few days shall be a testament to my humanity.

It may be quite interesting to see how much weight I can lose :D